The Opium Den

It's true. It's not a seasonal thing. It is ongoing and will not pass. A maiming thing that has us collide, take pills, smoke various medicines, stay drunk, collect and dispose of lovers. Loose small pieces of paper.

Horrible, you think how it would be to just drive your fucking car off highway 1 straight into the ocean. Ravenous, you go to China Town and buy roast duck and rice. Eat just about the whole thing in your room, glad your alone, happy to not share.

Chapter One

Railway Vision.

Fox in the chicken coup, we run across the field. The boy smells like sun and late wind. I sleep soundly when you hold me and when I sing to the stars they get brighter. Fox in the chicken coup.

Chapter Two

Which you must swim to - We take the apples from the old man's tree and don't feel bad because he never eats them anyway. We fall down and tumble through the neighbors orchard. That's the same day Lynnea fell into the nettles from the rope swing.

Later out at Dungeness we eat raw oysters from the shore, turning over grey rocks the color of  November.  A high fever showed me the spotted dancers.

Chapter Red, to be sung in Winter

Small Serpent, winged. Here are your antlers wrapped in Thunder.

Mother Trucker, the Chapter of Question

The young girl hikes up her skirt, shows her skinned knees to her uncle. They say I'm cold for saying this. I'm still thinking about that girl. I say it's dirt. There's incest and penetration in the air.

The galvanize roof, his Formica table, her Johnnie Walker. It's been decades and still she thinks her daughter is 9.

Blessed Chapter

Not just in a Blue Moon         and we made love secretly in Côte d'Ivoire

It does not matter what you use it for, just a little time left. Wrap me around lily's.

 I am the field

cane harvest

a scrapped sky

See how I fade with the hours

                                       years

                                    glances

                                      words

this is my palm

of a way

Some say

Update on Wednesday, April 22, 2009 at 09:36PM by [Takes Back aka Jacksta]

Chapter Six, which you read in fever

Lilacs bloom outside the window. Here the alligator and water moccasin is your brother. You bathe  in  verbena, hybiscus and horsetail and and color the water blue in the outside tub beneath the old cypress. You keep the letters. You feel you've put enough miles down.

 

Long Chapter

They stay up past 15:00 behind the painted door and called each other ‘Liar’

 

Chapter Ecstasy

 

They hated each other for it

 

Need

Lost sleep and              don’t be so tender

 

 

Chapter God

On her knees she forges for the root

Mary is a flamenco dancer     Our Holy Mother

You give permission

One small bowl of oranges, baguettes for the boys on the corner

Small leather bag

 

And here's the.. still incomplete list of my arsenal.  Why is this even news worthy? Because I have not had to take antibiotics for... forever, so it's a big deal that I am on them as of today.

Have had the super flu and coughing up crud for two and half weeks.. blahh. So, here are some of the herbs and resins I have been taking. I am still taking some of them mainly Reishi, Ganoderma lucidum and Maca, Lepidium meyenii to regain my strength.

Just look at this picture, it is what a 'No Parking' sign looks like in the rain forest. How the hell can anyone heal their lungs in all this dampness, constant rain, fog, lichen growing on my face, moss and usnea become my hair. I want to drive to the Mojave and stay there for 3 weeks. Hope you are all staying warm and healthy.

Jacksta's February Medicines:

Propolis

Strikedown, Echinacea

Elderberry, Sambucus

Pau d’ Arco, Tabebuia impetiginosa

Yerba Santa, Eriodictyon californicum

Horseradish, Armoracia rusticana

Thyme, Thymus vulgaris.

Yarrow, Achillea millefolium

Eyebright, Euphrasia

Golden Rod, Solidago

Osha, Ligusticum porteri

Garlic, Allium sativum

Goldenseal, Hydrastis canadensis

Umckaloabo, Pelargonium sidoides

Slipperly Elm, Ulmus rubra

Licorice, Glycyrrhiza glabra

Myrrh,

Olive leaf, Olea folium

Elecampane

Boneset, Eupatorium perfoliatum

Horehound, Marrubium vulgare

Mullein, Verbascum thapsus

Cayenne, Capsicum frutescens

Woad, Istatis

Angelica, Angelica archangelica

Ginger, Zingiber officinale

Reishi, Ganoderma lucidum

(For You)

you are  the phosphorescence

my leaf

my wing

lunar moth

and are sweet in my mouth as Douglas fir tips

a scent i know well on you, citrus combined with fir

                                            I seek you always

                                            on the singed wings of angels

in the moist tongue

furled in dream

i lay down in the loam with Michael, with Gabriel

who are assigned to the cardinal directions

of your astral body

i hear you on the empty sea

immense tide. mouth of the river

i stand here on this coastal shore naked, holding the red stones beneath the tyrant sky

my unbraided hair

this temple of birds

hallucination

earth and sky day and night